SecretHeart108

I recently had a total computer emergency and then also moved whichare my excuses as to why I haven't been doing much on here. I'm hoping that I'll finish getting settled soon so I can start working on new projects, but priorities have to  come first... like a job, and then maybe getting my room put away

Such a pain but what can you do

I haven't updated in a while but hopefully that will change soon. I'm sending my laptop in to be worked on one last time so I won't have it for a week or so, but I've got a few new projects I've been trying to plan out so hopefully once I get my baby back I'll be able to use my renewed membership properly instead of just a waste of money

I'll still be getting messages so I'll be trying to check-in often. Hope you're all having a great start to summer!!!

Hi all! Just throwing out a quick update:

1) School's over! I've got one month to kick back and relax and then about two months  before classes start back up. I'm hoping to use some of this time to get some more works done.

2) My final critique and review went over really well but I still got some comments I'm not happy with.

      -My teachers have a serious problem with the way I sensor my nudity (barbie style!). I guess half of the problem is that I have trouble explaining why I do it and so it's either taken as immaturity or that I'm censoring in order to keep society happy... neither of which being true.

      -I was told that I don't have to take all the comments my teachers give me for granted... which is frustrating because I never take comments for granted. I think one of my professors was so stuck on the censoring nudity thing that he thought I completely disregarded anything he said. Teachers seem to struggle with the changes you do make based on their comments if you don't also make the major changes they suggest.

      -I also got a lovely lecture on how important it is for me to continue working even after the year was over. This was my fault; when they asked what I was doing this summer it didn't even cross my mind to say "keep drawing"... I guess since it's something I just enjoy doing that I thought it was implied.

      -It was strongly suggested I take up a painting class... I'm sorry, this might be one of those comments I don't listen too. There seems to be some confusion about what I do... I draw, I do not paint. While I'll admit I do refer to it as digital painting sometimes, and some people do work with their pieces like paint, I draw. And it's not that I've never tried painting... I have... never again...

      -My professors seem to not be fond of my "illustrationesque" style... odd, since I'm attempting to make illustrations Oh well, maybe I'll win them over eventually. I will be trying to make my works more developed though (possibly more realistic too?)

3) The challenge I proposed is still open. In one of my most recent pieces and journal entries I announced a project I'm working on. I've gotten a few comments, but only one person that said they'd like to try but have moved on to different things. I'd really appreciate the help of getting people to participate so if you could either take part or spread the word it will be greatly appreciated!
4) My premium membership is about to expire So I'm gonna go and try to work out if it's worth it to renew it and it if it is, if I have the money We will see.

So I've been working my little butt off lately and I'm very happy with what I've accomplished, lots of papers (one a group paper that ended up being almost 50 pages... yuck. And another I just finished that turned out to be 18 pages... still yuck, plus finances were involved.), presentation to do today, plus I finished a painting and 2.8 of my final critique pieces... which leads me to the point of this journal.

My final critique.

The last critique I wrote about (oh that infamous critique ) was my midterm critique, and now comes the final... tomorrow.

I couldn't be more nervous. I emailed my professor about how I don't know if I'm comfortable with showing one of my pieces (I think I namped it Imperfect Perfect or something on here... the creepy yellow one ). After all that progress and I'm freaking out over one little picture. My teacher told me that it's fine if I'm not ready to show it, which is reallly supportive! But at the same time I feel (ew... there's those feelings again ) like I'm letting myself down. At the beginning of the year I set a goal to have 3 projects fully completed for my critique, and I am actually able to show my new painting since it's part digital, but it's like right when I'm near the finish line I just sat down and said "I'm done."  I know I could just finish it up and throw it in there anyway, but I have this gut feeling that if I do that, I'm sure to regret it.

Any advice would be great right about now

So they want to play dirty... fine... I can role with that.

This is just a note that I might be submitting some odd stuff lately. I'm sorry that it's going to get a bit weird around here but don't take that as me being unfriendly or hostile or anything! I still want to hear from you and am still the sweet and friendly chick I always was.

If my teachers think my stuff isn't good because it's not personal enough, fine... I've done this before and I'll do it again. I usually draw the "meaningful" stuff when I'm upset, well good for them... they wanted "meaningful" and they've upset me, so they're going to get just that!

Xs and Os my dears, this game's not over till I say so.